I’m not playing Linda Lovelace. So me and the director decided — he wanted me in the movie but I wasn’t sure about what role I wanted to play. And then I said, “Okay, but we have to work on this, we have to evolve it.” I don’t think we’ve talked about porn, but she’s our creation. I’ve yet to step into her shoes.
Lucy is a very complicated woman — like most women — and a lot of the time she was very lost in her relationship with Nucky. She was in love with him, but she didn’t know how to be herself in that relationship fully and have him love her. So sometimes she would use her sexuality to protect herself or to get what she wanted. Not that she’s not a sexy character — and in Season One of course it’s a part of her, but audiences are going to see more of the real her. It’s going to be very different.
When I have to do my work — and find a safe place — that’s usually the place that comes up for me. I have to create a safe place. It’s always been a place that’s represented a lot of nurturing and love and safety.
It’s my aunt’s loft. But it’s really like my home. Because I had a lot of turmoil in my upbringing, and my home wasn’t really a safe place for me. So that place became my safe haven. I grew this bond with her that’s really been one of the most beautiful relationships of my life — a relationship that was a salvation for me.
I grew up in a loft. We used to live right on West Broadway between Prince and Spring, before Soho was a shopping mall, and we had huge cactuses. When I was a little girl I’d always crash into them, because I’d be dancing in my tutu and — bang! — I’d have nettles in me and I’d be crying.